Happy December! It’s the first Wednesday of the month, and that means it’s time for my first-ever post for the Insecure Writer’s Support Group. Shout out to Alex J. Cavanaugh, who created this amazing group of insecure writer/bloggers which has been going strong for years!
Today, I want to talk about dreams, goals, and expectations.
At the beginning of November, I shared a quote here by Elizabeth Gilbert about not living someone else’s dream. She shares some beautifully insightful things on her facebook page, and many of them resonate with me, but this one… it’s a great post about choices and letting go of what other people want for you. I haven’t stopped thinking about it since. I realized the reason why is because I’m insecure about the choices I’m making.
It’s so easy to get caught up in other people’s expectations. To measure the “right path” based on what the rest of the world says I should be doing. I’ve always been one to follow my gut and my heart, and allow the Universe to steer me on my path without that niggling concern. I don’t usually worry about expectations. But now that I’ve decided to publish my book, a lot of my life has shifted. I find there are a million things I “should be doing”, according to those in the know. I should be working to market it, to track sales, to build, and build, and strategize and plan and network and become prolific in order to have “success.” There is so much advice! How is anyone supposed to know which guidance to follow? What does success look like when you’re just starting out?
So far, I’ve been allowing myself to take the time to explore and test the waters of different roads, unwilling (unable?) to fire all pistons. I’ll be honest, I worry about burning out. I worry about turning something I love into a chore. I worry that giving myself permission to slow things down is the wrong move, that I’m missing something important. I worry about sharing this so openly!
I guess I’ve got some stuff to think on, and let go of.
It’s good to have something to work on.